In November 2007, a Fabergé clock, the “Rothschild egg”, sold at auction at Christie’s for £8.9 million. During that auction the egg would have been held by the safe hands of one of the Christie’s auction room staff. They typically earn about £24,000. It is not particularly well paid work.
Due to one of the peculiarities of English law concerning insurance and auctions, even though the ownership of an item has not yet changed hands, from the time that the bidding opens, until the item is sold, the item is temporarily, not covered by any insurance. This dates back from a time when auctions were a little more bloody than today, with many a dispute breaking out mid-auction, often ending with the attempted snatching (and subsequent breaking) of the items in dispute.
So the guy or girl who earns very little at all, must handle items worth millions of pounds and which are uninsured, very securely.
And here is where I feel that I am in a similar boat, the only difference being, that I do not have their confidence to take a firm grip. I currently have something very precious. £8.9 million would not cover it. And before you all come round and look under my mattress, it is not there (well not under it anyway)! What I have, is a friendship, a relationship, which is so precious, that I am frightened to hold it. I am frightened of breaking it. If I hold on too tightly, will it break? If I do not hold on tight enough, will it get away from me and fall and break?
What if I let the most precious thing in the world to me, slip from my grasp? I don’t deserve to be holding it. I am not capable or trust-worthy enough to be given something so precious. I feel like the poorly paid staff member. Logically, this is way too valuable to be entrusted to someone like me. I do not deserve it, I cannot be trusted to look after it.
And so I am constantly scared that I will break it or lose it and that my world will come crashing to an end knowing that what I just lost, can never be replaced. There is no insurance on relationships. There is just me.