Wow. Just when does one’s sexuality stop evolving?

KinkseyScaleNow before you dive right in here, you should know a couple of things. Firstly this blog post may well fall into your category of “Too Much Information” and secondly, I am not a young boy any more. Even the period of being labelled a ‘youth’ is a distant memory. For I am now well into the period that is known to some as ‘adulthood’.

Throughout most of my active sexual life, I have considered myself as straight. I love having sex with women. Ok so it’s often deeply perverted, kinky, wet, messy sex, but it’s with women. I have never had any interest in being alone with and having any form of intimacy with a guy. They just don’t do anything for me. However in a previous relationship, I was introduced to the concept of ‘forced bi’, where I, was ‘forced’ (i.e. coerced) to take part in some bisexual activities. And if we’re being brazenly honest about this (TMI spoiler), that means that I was ‘encouraged’ to suck men’s cocks.

Now I don’t know whether I was good at it because I liked it, or whether I liked it because I was good at it, but it seemed that I was usually able to make a guy cum. But the bottom line is that I quite enjoyed kneeling and sucking a guy off, but only, if there was a woman there orchestrating the scenario and enjoying it.

But that was it. I had no interest in being sucked by a guy, certainly no interest at all in fucking a guy and no particular desire to be fucked by one either.

However I have noticed over the past couple of years, a very subtle shift in these desires. I still have absolutely no desire to or intention of fucking a guy. I only fuck women. I can’t see that ever changing; it’s a hard limit.

But in my sluttier moments, when with a girlfriend who has expressed a desire to see it happen, I do get turned on by the idea of my boy-cunt virginity being taken and this shift is, even now, surprising me. I’m now at the stage where although I’d be really nervous about it, if there were women there orchestrating it, holding me down, and seriously getting off on watching it, I’d be up for getting fucked by a guy. And when I say fucked, I think I mean gang-raped because I’m greedy. (If I’m sucking a guy off, then one cock is never really enough, so I don’t see how being fucked would be any different).

But then recently, things have evolved yet again. I’ve never been keen on the idea of a guy touching or wanking me. That has had no appeal. Until recently. Together with my Domme / girlfriend, we have discussed it rather frequently (and by discussed it frequently, I mean I’ve got really slutty whenever I’ve been wearing whichever silky panties she’s instructed me to wear and ended up openly getting very turned on by the prospect of trying it.

So guess what? We’re going exploring. I posted an advert on Craigslist and was rather shocked to get a lot of responses. Sure I deleted the usual type of time-waster, folk who hadn’t bothered to read it all or the big-headed types who thought that the criteria didn’t need to apply to them. But that still left a small select few.

One guy we are meeting for coffee next weekend, which I think will just be a chat to see if there’s any chemistry, but another guy we are going to see, in his very VERY posh hotel room in a couple of days. Whilst the exact format of the time there isn’t set in stone, it sounds as if I’ll be possibly blindfolded, stripped down to my underwear (either panties or silky shorts) and this guy will massage me or caress me or play or wank me or some combination of all of the above. If I get turned on and feel as slutty as I know I can get, I will almost certainly ask if I can have his cock in my mouth and Mistress is looking forward to hearing me actually asking for that. She is also looking forward to watching us both at play, him maybe wanking me until I cum and me sucking him off to completion.

Of course it might not quite work out like that, one can never predict the chemistry or the feelings of anyone in advance, but we’re having a go.

But I am still actually a bit shocked. At my age, I’m still evolving and my tastes are changing and my willingness to experiment is increasing. So given all of the above, I have no idea if I still have the right to claim to be straight. But more importantly, I don’t care. My Domme and I are happy to see where this goes. I love her with all my heart and that’ll not change. I desire and lust after her with more fervour than I ever have and that’s not going anywhere.

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Our rules

LawIsn’t it funny how coincidences come together? A few days ago Mistress asked me to write out a list of what I thought our rules were and this morning I read this post about a submissive wife’s rules, which is on an amazing blog – I recommend it highly.

Now as Mistress and I have gone along our merry way, she beating me one minute and helping herself to my cock the next, certain routines have evolved and rules have developed. But nowhere has this ever been written down. There is no codex, no canon.

So when I was asked to write a list of what my understanding of the laws were, it took some thinking about. Some head scratching, some poking about in the inner reaches of my brain. Eventually I came up with three categories, which pleased me enormously because it meant I was ready to start inserting the bullet points – I’m a big bullet point fan. I came up with :

Physical appearance

  • To regularly keep my chest and underneath my arms smooth.
  • To make all of the area around my cock and boy cunt silky smooth and inviting looking when that is requested.
  • To ask before having my hair cut so that Mistress can watch and supervise.
  • To ask permission before eating biscuits or cake.


  • To give Mistress whatever physical pleasure she asks for.
  • To provide her with hard cock whenever she needs it and to stay hard without orgasming unless Mistress stipulates otherwise.
  • To present any part of my body for either inspection or use when required.
  • To be naked whenever we are alone in the house if possible.
  • To bend over and take it like a girl, in my cunt, hard and deep from her strap-on whenever that is required.
  • To pleasure any other person, whether they be a woman or a man, that Mistress asks me to in whatever way specified.
  • To allow my body to be used by any other person who Mistress offers me to.
  • To only suck cocks when Mistress is there to watch, unless instructed otherwise.
  • To masturbate only when permission has been granted.
  • To orgasm only when permission has been granted.
  • To ask permission before having any sort of sexual interaction with anyone else.
  • To not hold back when behaving in a slutty manner, but to let my sluttiness out.
  • To be a willing and obedient whore.


  • To carry with me at all times, a pair of panties so that I can be instructed by text to wear them whenever Mistress wants me to.

There are probably others and I’ll probably have them ‘drummed’ into me if I’ve forgotten any. I should add that when I wrote out the list for Mistress, I did actually forget the panties rule – it’s just become second nature.

Of course there’s nothing too surprising there really, but I’m curious, what are your rules? (Just please don’t go giving Mistress any really bad ideas)!

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HNT – The subtle use of colour

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Click for bigger, but really, why would you? © Mishman of Undercover Bondage

When undergoing humiliating procedures for the whim of one’s Domme (and the camera) it’s important to draw the viewer’s eye away from what’s going on. Here for instance we see the subtle use of colourful underwear to distract the observer from the misunderstanding which is taking place.


Full HNT slideshow here.

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HNT – Legs

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Another picture from this photoshoot by Caitlin.


Full HNT slideshow here.

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Would you care to blow mine?

Top 100 Sex Blogging Superheroes of 2013I’ve never really been a fan of blowing my own trumpet (well what did you think I meant?) so when I started to see folk trumpeting that they had been voted as one of the Top 100 Sex Blogging Superheroes of 2013, I decided against joining in. It felt just a little too smug and attention-seeking* for my tastes.

But it’s only just hit me that this is rather a silly attitude. For one thing, to be voted for anything by anybody is usually an honour and an achievement (unless it’s time to vote in a new village idiot) and it’s a trifle ungracious and rude to however many voted. Now I’ve no idea whether this is the top 100 out of 101 or out of 1001, but I’ve decided that by not mentioning my inclusion, I also lose the chance to thank those who voted for this blog.

So, without further ado, I would like to say a big THANK YOU to however many (great or small) voted for this blog in the above. I came 43rd, which I consider to be an achievement.

And 43 is a good number:

  • Ok so George W Bush was the 43rd POTUS, but we can draw a veil over that.
  • But if you understand Chen primes, then 43 is the first non-Chen prime number (a Chen prime is simply a prime that when 2 is added to it, either becomes another prime or the product of two primes).
  • Then there’s the Cars championship won by car number 43 in the Pixar film
  • And finally let’s not forget The 43 Peculiarity.

So all in all, I’m good with 43.

* Oh who am I kidding, I do attention seeking, especially when slutty!

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Birthday weekend treat

  • Date : 6th July 2013
  • Photographer : My Domme
  • Pictures : 11
  • Notes : A birthday weekend with my owner and Domme. Brilliant.

Back to the full list of photoshoots here.

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Playing with fire

Fire 2I have often been accused of playing with fire by those witnessing my interactions with a Domme. You see dear listener, I am not always the meekest or most grovelling of submissives (I know, you’re stunned) which apparently is what is sometimes expected or required. Somehow this accusation of playing with fire is meant to convey a warning; there is an implication that playing with fire might somehow be a bad thing.

Fire 3

Well tosh and tittle I tell you – playing with fire is fun and sexy and those of you who know something of me, know that I’m not averse to blowing things up on stage whenever I get the opportunity. I even trained at RADA don’t you know!

So you can imagine how delighted I was when a little kinky gathering turned into a little fire-play session – complete with that wonderful favourite of the stage illusionist, flash-cotton.

Fire 4

Obviously having tamed the beast that is, wild fire, I presented the gift to Mistress, who had conveniently stripped off (well I can’t think of any clothing fabric that mixes well with flames). No if you’re going to play with fire, you’re better to just strip off. Naked flames need naked people. (If that isn’t your local fire department’s motto, feel free to lobby for its use). So fun was had by all, even the ones that got a little bit burnt.

So a huge thank you to our hosts for providing a house that they didn’t mind risking and for both the means and the photographs from a great evening.

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